2 years ago

Two years ago tonight I wasn't pretty. I was swelling. My blood pressure was scary high. They were attempting to induce labor. This was all earlier than expected. Little did I know how soon my tiny cupcake would enter the world.

I will be giving in to my own worst nightmare pre-baby this weekend by turning my home into a primary colored wonderland for our little cupcake's 2nd birthday. I always said the one draw back to children is that your house is overcome with hideous primary colored plastic. While we've done a reasonable job keeping that at bay, all bets are off this weekend. I figure, if you are going for it, go for it. So, pictures to follow next week and they'll be primary.

I'm also doing a little reflection tonight on the wonder that the past 2 years have been. The picture above is so funny to see now. We had no idea what we were in for, how she'd rock our world, and how even though time seemed to be ticking PAINFULLY slow that night, time would soon go faster than we ever knew. The past 2 years have been incredible. We are more in love with her everyday and thankfully each other too. The fast ticking clock can't be slowed enough for us to soak up each moment we have with her. In fact, two years later, we still find it hard to share her.

For months now we've attended birthday parties, sang the song, done the dance and come home to a sweet cupcake that politely says "My turn?" or "My birthday?" At some point the politeness became desperation. One day she promised me she'd be good so she can have a birthday. It's amazing that while time is so fast for us, it's so slow for her. Yet she's graciously done the birthday thing for her friends and some of her family. I can't wait for tomorrow when we can open the door to her room and say it's YOUR Birthday. YOUR DAY. We'll sing to YOU. I can see her face now full of joy and excitement at the realization that it is really her day. Though I can also close my eyes and still see those eyes the first time they looked at me....both faces are perfect.

Tomorrow is YOUR DAY!!!! You'll wake up and call for us around the same time you first appeared in our life...2 years ago. We'll be as excited to see you tomorrow as we were the first time. We love you, Cupcake.